I”m beginning to wonder if I’m too addicted to mmorpgs. Whether I’m addicted or not, is not really up for questioning, it’s just a matter of how badly I’m addicted. I stumbled upon my old Everquest 2 profile. I noticed that I logged an average of about 40 hours per week on my main character even though I know I was working full-time during that time period.
I then checked my Lord of the Rings Online characters and saw thousands of hours have been twiddled away since I started playing a year ago. In the latest game, World of Warcraft, between my level 55 priest and my level 29 paladin alt, my playing habits have not changed.
Unfortunately, it’s not just the amount of time I spend playing, it’s the way I feel when playing as well. There have been occasions when I went to work dead-tired because I was either camping mobs the night before, or trying accomplish just one more thing right up until my alarm was about to go off. I’ve formed groups for instances the same day that I had to write 15 page papers. And while I still manage to shamble weary eyed out into the real world to do real world things, my mind is never fully committed to real life.
Always my mind is occupied by what game I’m currently playing and what game I’m planning to play. When I think of the past ten years, some of my fondest memories are of events that never happened in real life. My best friend actually describes the way I use MMOs as being similar to the way an alcoholic uses beer. The scary thing is, I don’t really disagree with her. I just disagree with her assessment that being addicted to MMOs is a bad thing. But sometimes I wonder… is my addiction a bad thing?